u and me r like one-heart beat so slice open my veins

berry89 @ 2005-06-08T00:08:00

2005-06-08T06:11:51Z

ok so fuck this journal!!!! im starting all over again maybe this time things will all be ok!!! so everyone please add me its choke_onmyheart ...........ok thats all bye

i just want to tell some of u how i feel......idk ive just been thinking a lot and im thankful!

2005-06-07T04:44:44Z

</a></strong></a>rockurworld is the bestest friend ever, shes lways here for me i love u girl, ur like my sister and uve never ever stabbed me in the back i remember we hated eachother at first but look where we r now i never would have thought id ever be this close to someone u truely have my heart girl!!i would honestly die for u and every time ur going through something or in pain im in pain to cause everything u go through im right here with u and dont forget it sweetie!! i luv u sooooooooooooooooooooooo berry much u sexy gurl!!

myachingheart damn girl ive known u for so long too ur always here for me to i love u so much its wierd to think weve come this far together and this year ur gonna be at hanks with me!!im so happy uve brought me so much happiness we have so many memmories and i luv looking back at them cause iv always had tons of fun with u!! ur my besstest friend also if i were to die i would die happy because i got to share my life with u and sandra i would die for u 2 !! and im not just saying i luv u like in a friend way i truely love u and sandra with all my heart like a sister truely with all my heart and dont ever forget that!!

lostinyoum72 amanda, ms. bobadillo u r an amazing friend thanx for everything its wierd how u knew someone a long time ago but u actually never knew until u become good friends ohhh never mind i cant explain it ur all confused but i mean like how we found those pictures of me and u together in pre-k !!wow dude thats crazy who wouldve known and we barely found them too thats a sighn!!j/k but i know ur a great friend and i hope we stay friends !! i luv u !!ash18 im sorry cilla but i just need to say one thing to josh!! look i know we have our past and when we did become friends u helped me so much, i was so hurt and u took it all away i know now that what happened happened for a reason and i luv cilla now but im glad for what happened i relize now that thats just what i needed it truely made my heart stronger and i got thrrough it all im not mad or sad at all about that anymore u guys both really helped me and honestly i love u as a friend now well i know we cant exactly talk but damn u 2 helped me so much and im so fucking thankful for what has happened thank u soooo much ill never forget u or her i luv u guys truely like ur the nicest couple ive ever met and ........i cant explain how thankful i am!!!!!damn i could go on and on but im sure im boring u!!!!thank u for everything honestly!!tonightimspent dude i know u think im a bitch for all the shit i talked and honestly im sorry but ive got to do what i gotta do to get over u !! i know u hate me now but im gonna stop i wont talk no more shit or even talk to u ill stay out of ur life but dude u sooooo broke my heart but i know later ill be thankful i know this will only help to make my heart grow stronger and thats exactly what i need right now!! im sorry for everything ok! will u please forgive me i know im a bitch and tell yvette im sorry too if u guys like eachother theres nothing i could do to stop it and i would hate to effect yvettes decision on what shes gonna do cause thats not fair to u or her !! ur a cool guy and i truely will miss talking to u.............thanx for everything and i dont mean that in a sarcastic way im sorry and if ive said anything really dick i didnt mean it its just i was really hurt.... i hope u have a good life!! goodbye to u and once again im sorry i wish things didnt end up this way!!!larryxjones hahahah i miss u soooo much larry and i just want to tell u that ur entries are truely hallarious especially when im sad they make me feel so much better!!!!hahahah dude u r so my idol i wish i was u , u seem so happy im proud of u and keep up the great work!

laughing my fucking ass off!!hahahah "my Luv" ur such a funny boy "little jim jim"!!lol haha

2005-06-06T05:28:17Z

"after the show jimmy, chris, kevin, richard and i went to chico's, they're such great little boys... i talked to israel on the phone and he told me some VERY interesting news lol, he's so funny
at around 1:30ish jimmy, kevin, and i went to go visit little demi! aww, too bad i didn't get to see little desiree! jimmy and i had a long talk on the way home, aww he's sucha sweetheart... i did a lota thinking after that talk, i hope i get to talk to him later" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahah laughing my fucking ass off!!!!!! hahah"little jim jim" hahahahahahahahahah!!!!

"ohh and everything that israel said about me was true!!" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahahaahahah hope ur happy "my love"hahahaahahaahaahahaahaahahahaah"i dont like sluts ewww they have like std's and shit"hahahahahahhahahaahahahah omg this shit cracks me up!!!

You make me feel 27489560695847474x better!!!lol shit man theres always a little bitch out there who has to take away my happiness!! thanks a lot SWEETIE

i didnt get what i wanted!! i got much more but its good....haha

2005-06-05T05:15:47Z

haha i just talked to someone who made me feel a lot better, lol i see things a lot clearly now after i heard all that shit about him, and u know some other people told me all that shit about him before too but i chose not to listen cause i liked him!! im sorry for not listening now cause hes just so fake just like her owell they will be good together, haha !! man i really got to thinking and welll i feel so good and free of all those bad feelings i just want to go party it up hahah!! dont worry ill find someone, ha an ohh soooo sexy emo boy who has a nice ass, haha and someone whos not all fake and like he cant be a liar he has to actually have feelings and not act all dead and boring all the time!!lol thanx the one who talked to me today i wont say ur name cause u told me not to say anything but since uv talked to me at least im not the only one who noticed those things about him well im definitally not the only one , i always stood up for him b4 but fuck that i got to know how he really was(fake)haha, lol!! so im starting out fresh and new ready to move on i dont deserve someone with no feelings like that anywayz.. ohh yeah lol sandras gonna be so proud of me for the first time in years i past all my fucking classes hahaha im so happy!!!!!but honestly thats cool some of that shit i didnt even know b4, im glad i know now cause i wouldnt want a guy like that,,, hes fucked up and cocky........as for everything good i ever said i take some of that shit back , not all of it but most of it.....ive finally relized ur not as good as i thought u were theres way better guys out there! haha well i hope everyones doing good out there this lovely night ohh yeah i especially hope "little jim jim" out there is having fun kissing yvettes ass!!! haha hes all urs sweetie!!good luck to the both of u .... lol ive truely had an amazing experience talking to u "my luv" haha ive learned that guys arent always as good as they seem, my thoughts have honestly changed!some guys are truely dicks ha i learned that straight up!!hahahahaha laughing my fucking ass off!!!!!!! i cant belive i never belived that shit about him b4!!! i have to admit im prety stupid for falling for him...hehelolhahahahahahahah

someone hit me , physical pain is so much better than eternal pain......

2005-06-04T04:26:37Z

i feel like shit today!!!!!!!! i couldnt sleep last night so i stayed up all night!!i feel sick to my tummy.......and im scared, im really scared!! oh what to do , what can i do??? what would u do if u really like someone and u found out another person likes him and u know that person will get him in the end????????i just know she will take him!!!!!!!!!im trying not to care but of course thats not gonna help i cant help i feel so helpless and unwanted............whats the point in liking someone anyways??all guys r the same and we r always gonna be hurt in the end i mean truly liking someone is just an excuse to get hurt and nothing lasts forever anywayz !!!!huh???but i guess its fun , when ur not hurting and when u think back at all those good memmories , or about how much that person makes u smile and makes ur heart feel all tinggalie inside and when they come near u ur heart is beating so fast and u get little butterflies in ur tummy or when u think back at the first time u met and u shook his hand and ur hands were so shaky and ull always remember that moment how much ur heart was beating!!!! awwww its better to love and lost than to never have loved at all at least im taking a risk right!!! chances are ill be hurting later but its all good right now it feels good inside when i think about him ...............sorry about all my misspellings i feel so drowsy and wierd i cant explain like my hands feel all heavy as im typing!!!haha i really wanted to go to the show tonight but i didnt have a ride it really suked but i spent my night talking to cilla!! thats always fun !!

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2005-06-02T07:55:19Z

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Jimmy

2005-06-01T09:19:25Z

Random Hottie and my sexy cat!!

berry89 @ 2005-05-31T01:29:00

2005-05-31T07:39:49Z

awwwww...... i fucking luv u people to death!!!!! the ones i hung out with tonight, u guys gave me a fucking awesome birthday i was a little disapointed at first because of the no birthday show and well because i didnt get to see _______________??? someone like he promised!!! but u guys made it really great i can honestly say u guys gave me the best birthday ever and u made me feel special, my parents didnt even remember my birthday ,niether did they give a damn but u guys............man i luv u all!!!!!!!!thank u sooooooo much!!!!! and i luv u sandra and jen ur gifts were the best gifts ever and i luv ur mom she bought me the best hello kitty cup in the world and the purple purse that i wanted for sooooo long!!!im in love with all of u people !!!!!!!!well here goes ill probably waste this fucking year like the last!!!!! ohhhh and my wish never fucking came true!!!!!!but i was expecting that!!!!!o well , right?????? lol i luv u guys!!!!!!!!

luv, berry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

berry89 @ 2005-05-30T00:11:00

2005-05-30T06:22:52Z

WELL EVERYONE ITS HERE, MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!! ANOTHER WASTED YEAR OF MY LIFE HAS PAST!!! MY BIRTHDAY WISH ISNT GONNA COME TRUE....... : ( THE FIRST PERSON TO WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY AT 12 MIDNIGHT WAS AMANDA BOBADILLO, THEN A MINUTE LATER JOSH, THE FIRST GUY AND ALSO THE FIRST TO WISH ME A HAPPY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY AND THE THIRD PERSON AND LAST SO FAR WAS CILLA.......AWWW THANK U BERRY MUCH ALL OF U FOR CARING ENOUGH TO ACTUALLY COUNT DOWN THE MINUTES UNTIL MIDNIGHT!!!!I LUV U BERRY MUCH!!!!!! U GUYS HAVE TRULY MADE THE BEGINING OF MY NEW AGE SPECIAL!!!

LUV ALWAYS, BERRY

OHHH YEAH AND JOSH PUNKED ME AND CILLA SICK STYLE, U DUMBASS I WAS ACTUALLY REALLY SCEARD!!!!!!!

berry89 @ 2005-05-29T00:10:00

2005-05-29T06:23:45Z

WASTING TIME ,I TRY TO HOLD IT ALL INSIDE, BUT JUST FOR TONIGHT THE TOP OF THE WORLD, SITTING HERE WISHING, THE THINGS I'VE BECOME , THAT SOMETHING IS MISSING, MAYBE I................... BUT WHAT DO I KNOW, AND NOW IT SEEMS THAT I HAVE FOUND NOTHING AT ALL , I WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE OUT LOUD , SLOW IT DOWN, WITHOUT IT ALL, I'M CHOKING ON NOTHING, ITS CLEAR IN MY HEAD AND IM SCREAMING FOR SOMETHING , KNOWING NOTHING IS BETTER THAN KNOWING AT ALL.........................................ON MY OWN.................................................

MY HEART HELD IN THE PALM OF UR HAND.....

2005-05-28T06:54:30Z

LIFE , IS FLOATING FAST AWAY,

BUT I LOOK, YOUR HEAD IS TURNED AWAY.

FROM THE MOMENT YOU LEFT I KNEW THAT SOMETHING WASN'T RIGHT.

BUT THE FEELING INSIDE HAS KEPT ME UP ALL NIGHT.

im such a lazy ass.......

2005-05-27T05:41:00Z

what the fuck happened???ok like in december i had 9.5 credits, somehow now i only have 8.5, haha this suks!!!i cant be considered a junior unless i have 11.5....im so mad at myself for being a lazy ass all year even in some of the easiest classes like video tech!!well im happy that this year has come to an end it suked so much, but here are all the best memories,

*when i had JL for photojournalism and mr. collette hated me cause he had me laughing all period long, and rigo too i luv those boys!!!

*haha, when alex stole the donkey from that bitch mrs. letz for me i wanted it soo bad,,i luv u for that alex!!! mrs. letz totally deserved it!!

*the first time i relized that mr. b looked like dr.phil, haha omg thats seriously his twin

*having mr.briner with jenny and laughing at mr. briner all period, ill always remember what he would say everyday, "why thats a late time", "pardon", "jenny do not sit on the furniture", and when he made me put my hand in the trash can just because i threw away a can instead of recycleing it!!oh yeah and when me and jenny told the whole class that there was gonna be a party and they belived it and mr. briner never said it was ok so he called my mom and i lied and said i was sick so he sent me to the nurse!!lol, but after everything i still passed his class and i never worked, lol all classes should be that way!theres so much more but im too lazy,, haha so bye everyone hopefully ill see everyone at shows or something!!ohhh nvm ill see u bitches at summer school!!ha!

fuck!!!!!!!! this fucking hurts,.........

2005-05-26T06:08:37Z

I knew this was going to fucking happen!!i should have known u were way too fucking good for me... i knew u were acting wierd the sad part is u couldnt even tell me.what the fuck is up with that?? so yeah u wish u had a girlfriend right?? but owell ull find someone huh??? yeah i guess im not fucking good enough for u but u didnt have to fucking lead me on and get my hopes up!!! i wish i could have known from the beggining when u prommised u werent going to lead me on!!! this is the worst feeling ever, yeah but i guess im just over reacting right???? well it did hurt to see u comment on ur lj that u wish u had a girlfriend and ull find someone when u know im fuking standing right there waiting for u....man, thats sooo fucked up! i thought liking u was worth the risk but , i dont know now.... happy fucking birthday to me huh???yeah thanx a lot!!

berry89 @ 2005-05-24T23:04:00

2005-05-25T05:11:14Z

man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everytime i talk to him i find myself wanting him more and more..........i dont want to get my hopes up , so i hope hes not leading me on!!!

ohhhh yeah, the birthday show probably isnt happening anymore:(:(:(:(:(

luv always, berry

berry89 @ 2005-05-24T00:22:00

2005-05-24T06:43:49Z

im so sorry for everything , i never meant it to end up like this........im going to cut him out of my life so u 2 can be happy.... but just know that this is not fair to me, all we want is to be friends theres nothing more there, iv moved on and so has he, he loves u and u love him... i understand but then again i dont.....im so confused!! hes been taken away from me twice now , it just seems so unfair , but im sick of the drama so bye to both of u!!!!!!! im sorry for all the problems i caused between the both of u .....and how can u not trust us when u know i really like jimmy and he is in luv with u??????i hope ur happy now!!!!!! I hope u know how much this hurts me!!!!!i guess im getting fucked over again....

berry89 @ 2005-05-21T01:19:00

2005-05-21T07:53:19Z

so today was a good day i guess ........ ME SANDRA ,AMANDA AND YVETTE WENT BOWLING AND I REALLY SUCK, I HAD THE LOWEST SCORE! THE OTHER GIRLS WERE LIKE PRO OR SOMETHING!! GOSH , SANDRA PROBABLY HAS LIKE A SECRET BOWLING TEAM OR SOMETHING..... THEN WE WENT TO WALMART AND THESE GUYS TALKED ALL THIS CRAP TO US JUST BECAUSE WE COULDNT FIND SANDRAS CAR IT WAS SO MEAN. GOSH SOME PEOPLE ARE SUCH JERKS THESE DAYS! I CANT WAIT UNTIL THE BIRTHDAY SHOW, HOPEFULLY MY ONE BIRTHDAY WISH WILL FINALLY COME TRUE I WOULD TELL EVERYONE WHAT IT IS BUT THEN IT FORSURE WONT HAPPEN, WELL IT PROBABLY STILL WONT COME TRUE BUT JUST TO BE SAFE!!:)

LUV, BERRY:)

P.S. SANDRA DO U STILL KNOW THE MUFFIN MAN??????????????????????**

berry89 @ 2005-05-19T22:10:00

2005-05-20T04:14:16Z

alex hooked me and sandra up with free tropical snow, that was awesome!!!!! thanx alex.....

sad cause I didnt say hi to Jimmy!

2005-05-18T23:43:01Z

Here are some pics!!! Jl-top left, My dog Bones-isnt he cute?? Jl and Rigo left bottom and last but not least me(the white ass) and Sandra!

Jimmy makes me Smile...

sorry I didnt say hi...I didnt want to interrupt you and your friends though, I dont wanna bother.

me and sandra bouts to get buckwild

berry89 @ 2005-05-17T22:09:00

2005-05-18T04:21:01Z

well at first i had a horrible day but then everyone cheered me up, i luv u all ur such awesome people and i will always be there for u like u were there for me today!!!!! i luv u !!! i feel so much better now!!!:) Sandra i cant explain how much i luv u like a sister u made me feel soo much better today , ur always there when im hurt or when i cry i luv u girl!!!!

p.s. sandra, my heart is urs to fill or burst, to break or burry or wear as jewelry whichever u prefer...... luv always berry:)

berry89 @ 2005-05-16T23:54:00

2005-05-17T06:03:10Z

so yeah,: ( im prety sad right now but mostly disapointed!! it hurted to hear that from him.....oh well the truth hurts and i should have known he was too good anywayz!! why cant i ever be good enough for someone????

i luv u sandra i wish u were here to cheer me up right now............... :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(::(:(:(:(: :( :( p.s. sandra rox my sox!!!! luv always, berry

berry89 @ 2005-05-15T00:54:00

2005-05-15T07:05:59Z

so today was a prety ok day , it was soooo wierd first we thought there was a show at the warehouse and when we got there, there was all these punk rock people, and sandra locked her keys in her car so we had to call her mom ,there were these scarry cholos!!!! so then we went to taco cabbana where there was this scarry warewolf/ hobo guy , omg he was just the funniest yet scarriest thing ever he was all drunk and talking to himmself!!! that was the best part of my day!! he had to be a warewolf since yesturday was friday the 13th.... right??? gosh i luv sandra im with her at this very moment!! my computer is still broken !! ohhhhh well i dont want to go to school on monday so everyone just live today is if theres no school tommorow!!! well ill see everyone i dont know when.......................................

p.s. the punk rock girls at that show were sooo mean

random

2005-05-14T03:49:43Z

*Things about me that you dont care about*
*General*
Name	amanda berry
Age	turning 16
Birthday	may 30 1989
Hometown	el paso
Where you live	wayside st.
Eye Color	brown
Hair Color	brown
Height	5'4
Weight	not sure
Righty or Lefty	righty
Inny or Outty	inny
Ethnicity	hispanic but i look white
Worst Fear	being stranded in the ocean or ubducted by aliens
Weakness	im really stupid
Strengths	i have none
Goals	to live life as if theres no school tommorrow
*Favorite's*
Soda	lemonade
Food	maccaroni
Car	who cares
Actor/actress	toby miguire and julia roberts
Music Artist or Band	senses fail and the used
Animal	donkeys
Color	purple
Song	ever so sweet
Movie	the goonies and the notebook
TV show	that 70s show
Holiday	friday the 13th.......today duh
Subject in school	none i hate them all
Resturant/Fast Food	sonic
Pizza Topping	mushroom
Book	the lost boy
Thing in your room	stereo
*This or That?*
Chocolate or Vanilla	choclate
Rock or Pop	rock
Pizza or Hotdog	pizza
Ketchup or Mustard	mustard
Apple or Orange	orange
Computer or TV	computer
Pencil or Pen	pen
Color or Black and White	color
Skating or Biking	skating
Beach or Mountains	mountains
Naughty or Nice	nice but naghty with my luv sandra!!
Bright or Dark	dark when im with sandra in the back seat!!!!
Night or Day	night
Late night or Early morning	late night
*Have you's?*
Been in love	no
Smoke	once
Drank	yeah
Been on TV	ohhh yes!! j/k
Been in the News paper	no
*Do you's?*
smoke	no
drink	no
play an instrument	no
think you're attractive	no
have a crush on someone	yes big time hes in a band!!
think someone has a crush on you	heck yes i know sandra does!!
have a best friend	of course, sandra!!
draw on yourself	yes
have a cell phone	no
find yourself bored a lot	yes
have a myspace	no
have AIM	yes
have MSN	no
have a girlfriend/boyfriend
*For a Guy/Girl*
Hair	brown
Eyes	brown
Height	5'4
Weight	fat
Style	weird
*Random stuff*
Do you have piercings	my ears
Do you have tattoos	no
How many CD's do you own	too many
Are you popular	no
Have you ever broken the law	every day with sandra!! (sex in public)
Have you ever been arrested	yes with sandra (sex in public)
Are you tired of this survey	yes
Did you like it	ya
Are you done	duh
*Ok your done!*
*Survey Made by: El Jake*
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

berry89 @ 2005-04-27T17:03:00

2005-04-27T23:18:05Z

So the hi-lights of my day:

I stayed home today...which is always fun...Thanks to Sandra!!
I slept practically all day...I needed the rest.
And best of all...Sandra got me a cow looking kitten!!!

It is my Birthday Present and I love her very much. The kitten is mosly all black with a little bit of white on her. Me and Sandra tried to let our kittens play together, and Sandras kitten started to be mean! What a jerk Jade Gordi is!!! Well I am too EXCITED and want to play with my kitten so Ill let you guys go!

Love......Berry

berry89 @ 2005-04-22T17:35:00

2005-04-22T23:37:59Z

hey everyone its berry! i havnt updated in a while because my computer is not working so people have been updating for me!!!!well i dont have much to say either i guess everythings ok!!!

Hello People!!!

2005-04-14T23:58:35Z

Hey guys its SANDRA updating Berry's Journal....Berry really wants a cutie pie emo boy...So someone please help me find her one??? C'mon people...Help Me!!! p.s. it would help if he looked like that Jimmy boy from montwood...she thinks he is gorgeous!